I don’t really know what day of circuit breaker it is but how I’ve been spending it is by listening to music from the past. It might be from the past but it’s so relevant these days. There are love songs and then there are songs that touch on life. I would say it really helps me get through this, apart from my conversations with you. I love that music speaks for you when words fail. I wouldn’t say I’m not good with words because it’s the one thing I’m good at. Some days I just don’t wish to use words.
Of course, I’m aware that it’s a distraction. The Almighty, Allah swt is still the One who understands us best. But here’s the thing about it.... I’ve always loved listening to music and I don’t just listen to it. I feel the emotions and relate to the lyrics. I grew up not being in sync with my surroundings. Where friends would mingle and do crazy stuffs, I would be plugging in my earpiece and tune the world out. I would have music playing in my head all day. I’m not a musician by any means, just someone who finds solace by listening to it. That’s why I’m drawn to the people who create it, because I felt like they are the people who would understand me best.
Especially during these times... where your thoughts can run freely and go to any corners they choose to. But of course, you have control over it at the end of the day. That is why, I choose positivity over anything. It might make me seem silly but this is how I survive. Then again, am I supposed to survive or live? The world doesn’t end when yours did, so why make it seem like it ended before your time comes? Live it out. Do what is right, or rather, what you think is right. Hold onto the faith and He will guide you along.
You’re not lost and you don’t need to be found, you’re just on your journey through life.
Don’t mind me, I’m just having my moment of self-reflection.
