And just like that, we're down to the last 5 days of the year...

That's fast, isn't it?

I'm not gonna dwell on it but instead I'm gonna make the last few days count.

Its been a year of ups and downs. Come on, there's no one that has it easy all 365 days. There's bound to be moments where you are down but what matters most is how you get up from it. You know, I always felt like people couldn't understand me but I realized that if they're not going to be with me through it, at least they left me to it. I survived, almost. It was a struggle but I knew all along He was there.

Its me, I'm the one who keeps leaving.
Astaghfirullah.

I'll leave that to me. I don't want to keep writing it down to the point that I stop making actions matter because we all know actions mean more than words.

Soon I'll be leaving on a family holiday to Sabah sans my brother. But do you feel how excited I am??

VERY

Its our first family holiday after so long.

Ya Allah, please make this journey a smooth and safe one for all of us. Amin.

Plus I heard the place is very beautiful!! Anyway, I also got into a school. I've always wanted to chase for a diploma. It's not really a want but a need if you're staying in Singapore. I really need to do better though.

I always feel the need to better myself that makes me just become worst. I'm not one for resolutions and all those cliches but there's always one thing that I set myself to be in coming years and that is to be a better person.

All right, it's almost 4am right now. I just came back from hanging out with my friends. I actually like moments like just now where you just chill and laugh together with your friends. Whether they're your friends or not is a mystery but it was good. I don't know, I can't bring myself to be too happy because its like waiting for the other shoe to drop. I hope it stays though.