Who the fuck am I kidding?

I have been hurting all these times... they will comfort me with words

But who the fuck am I kidding?

He knows, Allah swt definitely knows... how can He not know about my tears and my pain when He is the All Knowing...

I hope He knows that sometimes I am at my limits and I’m unable to hold it in any longer. I always have to act like I’m fine but my heart is truly hurting. And He knows. I have to learn to let go, which is usually hard for me. Maybe I am trying to hold on to something that makes me feel but it is wrong. He will never notice me who is there... besides men will look for someone who gives them stability.