I always thought that life didn’t come with a manual. That you’ll have to manoeuvre through trials and errors to find what is right. It’s true but recently I found so many lists of dos and donts and what you should be. Truthfully, it gets a little overwhelming. What if you haven’t been that kind of person for the longest time? Does that make you a certain kind of person?
I have never been a sharer or a talker. I am more of a listener and comforter. For a moment I was unhappy because I felt that nobody understands me but I think I am understood the most when I feel that somebody needs me. I have come to realise myself and embrace who I am. Of course, I am imperfect and there’s always room for improvement. Sometimes when I share little bits and pieces I already feel that it is too much for me and the other person. I just wish people can understand that I take my own sweet time in trusting other people. I may feel comfortable but I really need to learn to trust.
The reason why I became distrustful comes from observing my own family and if I can’t trust my family, what makes me think I can trust other people easily? I really think I need help for my mental health...
