If I don’t put what I have read into practise.

No amount of reading can keep me motivated.

Not if I don’t tell myself enough that ‘I am enough’.

Some days it gets really tiring and confusing.

I’ve tried every ways to distract myself but it still gets to me.. in some way or another.

I thought I could be a better person.

Turns out, I am just a struggling person.

I hate dwelling in self-pity the most. It turns me into a negative person. I find myself crying unnecessarily in public places, which is embarrassing. Not like, ugly sobbing but I can feel my tears welling up in my chest. And the worst thing is that I feel like a weak being. We all are but not everybody cries all the time. I feel like I do it too easily. They say, you never know if you never try. It’s true, I have never been someone who dares to try out. Before I wrote this, I wanted to put a but and give an excuse. I should face my problems and deal with it.

Truth is, I am hurt. I can’t help it but to feel hurt. I want to embrace this hurt and come out better. I believe that I will.