There's so many things on my mind right now.

Like for example, how to save money for my holiday in March and April.

I want to pass all my tests and exams but at the same time save money for holidays. So complicated, huh? Hahaha my life is really boring. I'm starting to get bored of myself. 😂

Oh, did I tell you guys? I started school last week. Its only the second week but I already have a test in 2 weeks time. That's really fast. The way the time is passing by so fast is scaring me. Sometimes I wonder what if I don't get to experience what I wanted to? Would I feel regret or you know, would I be ok because then I wouldn't know what it feels like to experience such things?

I've always worried about things like what if I don't get to experience marriage. Or having kids, traveling the world or even graduate? Would all these matter when we go to the hereafter? I wonder. I mean, which person wouldn't want to experience such things especially when they promise you happiness. Really, all that we are trying to achieve in life is to be happy. But it all really depends on how we define it.

To be happy is really simple. You just have to be thankful with whatever is happening and accept things the way they are. What we are doing is just making it complicated. We want more money to get what we want and as a result we work a lot leaving no time for ourselves or even our family. The reason why I change to part time is to actually have a family life. I'm not even married but I want to spend time with my family. I want to have happy moments so I can remember it when time passes.

Also, my parents are getting really old. I hope they will be there when I get married and have children. My grandparents only lived up to when my parents had 3 kids. Talking about my grandparents makes me miss them a lot. My brother and I spent the most time with them and they really took great care of us when my parents were working. I really miss them and I hope to meet them if I can. They've passed but we will meet in heaven, in sha Allah. Amin.

You see, time passes and as we get older we miss the times we had when we were younger. The only thing is that we shouldn't have any regrets. We should be able to live the way that makes us happy. If we spend more time sulking, we would only regret life and hope for it to pass.  But life is actually a good thing we should be thankful for.

With this, I hope that I will do more things that makes me happy. I've always done things that makes other happy but I never thought for myself.

xoxo,
Afiqah