You know how you become interested in someone and never got to know them?

Then one day comes and you get to.
And you realise there's a reason why it took so long.

The reason is because it's not needed for you to know each other.

That one day is just to satisfy your curiosity.

I guess.

I guess this is His way of saying, "it's not you, it's them"

There are many times actually where I thought, am I not pretty enough for them to not want to know me? Not that I suddenly gained tons of confidence and think that I am but maybe, the reason is not superficial. Maybe there's no need to know each other at all. Yup, why would you want to know someone you don't intend to share a life with, right? I mean, there's nothing wrong in making friends but to approach someone and get to know them, that's an effort and it's only reserved for people who're meant to be with each other.

I understand now. I'm learning and experiencing a lot of new things actually. Not significant things but small little things that are big to me. I couldn't let this one go but did you guys know it's my first time being screened today? Like wow, I don't know what that makes me but it's kind of cool. Not in a proud way but guess there's a first for everyone?

Talking about firsts.. there's a lot of firsts that I haven't experienced. No, I'm not talking about making love. I mean, in dating sense. Like watching movie, dining out, having heart to heart talks, fighting.... etc. And I'm 22 this year. I don't know if that makes me a sad being but I'm not sad. I'm excited for when the time comes.

I know you're somewhere out there but can you come along faster? I still need to get to know you and all. Hahaha, I'm kidding, please take your time but just know that when you're here, you'll be my first and last. 🙊

It's funny how everything boils down to falling in love. I've never been in love like seriously. After all, I've never been in a relationship. All right, apart from that, I've been trying to get away from work. As in, finding a new job but it's not been successful. I really want to leave and today was one of those days.

It just made me realise how much of a shitty management I have that they actually forgot today is a public holiday. Plus we're down with 3 staffs. It's so annoying. Yesterday was bad enough and I had to go through today. 😭😭

It's not just me but the rest of us working was annoyed too. What a life. Anw, it's all over.

I need to sleep bc I'm working morning tomorrow. Take care and till then.

xoxo,
princess fy