I am only a human.

I make mistakes, just like you do.
I wasn't born perfect. In fact, my flaws are aplenty.

I can't not feel angry when something affects me deeply. How would you feel when you've been disregard like you're just a piece of rubbish on the ground?

Today at work, it's the first time I felt like ending it all. I mean, my heart hurt in a way that I can't comfort it. You know when you're very sad and all you wanted to do was cry just so you could let it all out? Yah, that.

I had my manager indirectly telling me I didn't do my work properly. It felt like what I did the other day didn't matter at all. If I did something wrong, give me a constructive comment rather than belittle my work. As much as I feel like the work sucks, I've never treated like it didn't matter. You probably don't know how much effort I put into it but it's ok. That's totally ok but I'm getting tired of feeling like a piece of shit. I guess that's the problem with work culture in Singapore. Bosses think workers are just tools for them to get their work done. Fish, we're humans too! I don't really curse so I say fish. Also, my colleague decided to find fault with me. Honestly, I'm sorry if I forgot to do something I was told to by her but I don't even know what is it. It's most likely not on purpose but she prefers to think that way so ok then.

Damn, thinking about it hurts. I wanna curl up and cry but that's not worth it so I'll just watch something funny and laugh. Actually, I have this Korean drama I want to watch so I'll do that. 

I hate my job. It's not even something I want to do. I hope things get better. They always do, right?

xoxo,
princess fy