I mean, how do we know that some things doesn't matter in our life and wouldn't affect us 5-10 years into the future? Why do we care so much about what a person thinks of us even when we know it doesn't matter? Why are we conditioned in such a way that some of us do care about the little things?

I am that person. The person who gets emotional over small things. I try though, not to care and such but it doesn't work. Not that I overthink about it but it does drift in my mind at some hours of the day and it got me thinking, is it because I care? And is there anything wrong in caring? 

I hope that's my nature. To care for someone in such a way that it doesn't become meddlesome. I do love people. Just not all of them. Working in a retail store has made me seem like someone who hates people but I don't. It's just that the best of people make me angry at times and I just tend to curse all of them together. I'm very worried it'll deter my patience level. I used to have high level of patience like for example when my friend is super late, I wouldn't rage. I just s

Wow, my attention span is really short such that after I wrote that I went to another tab and forgot all about what I wanted to say. Hahaha.

You know, I've been working in UQ for almost a year and a half and despite my bad attendance and slow progression, I'm kinda proud of myself. I feel like I could commit to something. I think I'm ready for a boyfriend. Lel. No really, I should be worried that I'm almost 22 and am still single af. Everyone's attached but then there's me. Hahahahahaha nah, don't wanna seem too desperate. I'm not ok, I'm waiting for that special person.

My prince must have fallen hard and can't get up.

Oh well.

xoxo,

princess fy