We're already 10 days into the new year. Not like it's a big deal but, don't you think time is going by too fast?
I'm so worried I haven't figured out my life yet.
I feel like I'm still stuck in a workplace I don't really like. It's easy, but it's not enough for me. I don't want to go through every day having people take advantage of me because I easily say yes. Although, I don't think the problem is in the job now. It's me, maybe I have to change and learn to say no. Do you know how much it kills me to say no though? Every time I tell someone no it's as if it'll be the last time we will talk. But it's freeing. Sometimes I feel like I can make my own decisions and actually tell someone if I don't like something. I am a free person after all and only Allah can hold me in place, if He wills it.
A lot and I'm not exaggerating, but a huge load of things happened in the past year. I believe I have changed in between too. I still need to improve as a person but I think I am a good person. Everyone is. People should believe that more so it only encourages them to be better. I really need to be a better person than I am though. I stayed in my job for at least a year, I can't believe it happened but it did. It just shows how loyal I can be when I'm determined. Or I had no choice. My family doesn't realise this but I'm doing this for them. There was a lot of eye opener moments that made me backed down, from my judgements and whatnots.
This year.
I'll be better.
I want a boyfriend. Heh.
Not in the way I'm desperate for someone but I want someone to love and to hold. Not until I fully understand my love for Him, though. Definitely not if it's not for Allah. I want to find a love that only brings me closer to Allah. That's all.
I wanna go on holidays. At least to 2 places. Not going to divulge on where though.
I want to bring my parents for a holiday.
I want to do a lot of things. In sha Allah, it'll happen.
More action, less talk. Tawakkal. And more doa.
SOLAT!!! Astaghfirullahaladzim!!
All right, sleep now.
xoxo,
princess fy
