I was late for work for 2 consecutive days. And it’s freaking ridiculous.

I didn’t want that to happen but it did, shit usually happens to me.

Like what I am going through right now..

It’s a very personal thing for me because I feel embarrassed and humiliated

when my feelings are forsaken. I’m not the only one with feelings of course.

I think I’ve learnt about myself better. I get jealous and insecure over nothing.

You can chalk it up to me being crazy or whatever but I don’t wish to explain.

I will socially withdraw when I find out something that hurts me.

I go through a series of emotions that becomes very toxic and confusing.

It is as easy as just letting it go but it’s not for me because I usually feel more than I let on.

I know you hate me right now, you have given so many warnings that I didn’t heed.

It’s safe to say that I brought this upon myself.

I’m the only one who cares.

I can say that I did.

They say I can talk about it if I want to, but I know better.

When they know the reason, it’s just a reflection of who I am.

I am not a good person, but everyday it’s a choice to be one.

It takes a very conscious effort to be one. There are usually more don’ts than there are dos.

I’m working on not caring, I’m working on not being too concerned.

I usually give people what they want and I am giving you what you want.

I know you are happy, and that’s all that matters.