I’ve been watching shows on Netflix apart from doing the minimum chores and baking. It’s a bit productive but not enough. I spent more time on my bed hahaha. It’ll be better with you in it. Eh? 🤭

So recently I watched “Love is Blind”, it’s a reality show on Netflix where men and women go on speed dating and decide to get engaged before meeting each other then eventually decide on getting married. MARRIAGE! The one thing we have all thought is a lifetime commitment but in this show, they made it seem so smooth. Well, I’ve not completed the whole series but I can’t help but to have my reservations. At some point I wish it was really that easy.. to fall in love blindly with someone’s whole personality instead of factoring in their looks, age, status and whatnots.

There’s so many, too many opinions about relationships and marriages on the internet, real life stories of cheating spouses and the whole ugly truth. Who in their right mind wouldn’t be scared right? I’m not blind to all of it but I hope that when the right one comes, we’ll both be 100% in it despite the adversities. I am saying all these because currently I’m 26 and I fall in and out of crushes. Apart from one failed relationship, my feelings have been forsaken. It’s not anyone’s fault but mine for not being able to express it well. Then again, I am truly afraid of rejection, afraid of the repercussions when I know deep down that it doesn’t kill me. And what doesn’t kill me only makes me stronger.

That’s what you get for being an over-thinker. Nothing to be proud of but sometimes you really have to be braver than your thoughts. Otherwise you’ll just be letting everything go. And sometimes you’re not as lucky for it to come back. All these thoughts from watching a reality show... hahaha.