Sometimes I'm really tired. Not physically but mentally. Or just, you know... tired of everything.

I've been feeling unfairly treated but I keep reminding myself that He knows. Allah knows best and He's there. I think my patience comes only from remembering Him. I hope I get through it soon. I know I will. I'll either get over it or just come out stronger. I know for a fact that I come out stronger each time.

I really hope I'll be able to start school because that's what I really want. I just want to make my life a little better by getting a diploma. Right now it's all I'm hoping for. Apart from hoping someone I'm kinda crushing on would follow me on instagram.

I don't know whether it's sad or cute that I'm having a crush at this age of 22. I should be in a relationship and getting ready for marriage. You know what scares me? Being what you think is affectionate only to have the other person find it annoying. I've never had a relationship, you know. I don't know how someone can accept what you think are all your flaws but I guess that's love.

I think I can accept you. I have to get to know you though. I really hope you're as curious about me as I am about you.  I really really really hope so.

Anyway, there's that. I know it seems vague but that's my thought at this timing. I'll feel better. I just wish there's someone who would comfort me like I would comfort myself. 😔

xoxo,
princess fy