Although I feel like it

I want to talk about my pain

Because I have nobody to talk to

No one that I can truly talk to that

will make me feel like I’m heard

It could be that I made a mistake and you got hurt by me

Or that I did not do anything but you want to stop hurting me

But the way you handled it definitely left me feeling all lonesome and abandoned

Hey I can take a rejection you know

I can be quite intuitive when it comes to people too

Maybe after I have wrote all this down, it made me realise, what is all this feelings for?

I knew when I developed feelings for you I was digging my own grave

I knew when I fancied you I would never be who you were looking for

You wanted someone fair, with beautiful nose and eyes, soft and luscious locks and body that resembles a model

I wasn’t any of that 

I stopped at that… because I don’t think I can go on further.

My heart is in so much pain, I don’t know how much tears I have to shed to relieve myself of all the pain. I don’t know if you have gone through this type of pain. I feel so lonesome. I have nobody to talk to. They all told me I can talk to them but when I tried, even through my pain, I felt that they got impatient. No one had the time and I ended up listening to them instead. God, I am tired at times. All I want is just to be heard. My own parents are tired of me. What do I do when everyone tires of me and I still have to go on living? I feel so sorry for existing..