And I don’t know how to organise it.

Going to work has been a wonderful distraction for me.

But now even that distraction has stopped for a moment.

My hobbies are close to nonexistent but I don’t want to downplay it, I do have hobbies.

I love writing, listening to music, watching movies, etc..

Most of us do but when something is bothering your mind, even these methods won’t be effective.

I think I became too comfortable in my conversations with you. I have become dependent on it that when it stops, my thoughts take on a ride. It’s really not your fault or anyone, I just needed to write this down so I can think better.

I always try to rationalise what happened even when there’s probably nothing.

It’s just that... what is it about this trust that we have built and it just went down the drain? I hope it’s not about what I said because I was just being honest and truthful. I don’t think I meant any ill intent. I know myself and I don’t have that in me. But that’s ok if you choose to think otherwise. I have told myself time and again not to worry because I know my intentions well. I guess all I wanted was to be connected to you. All I wanted was this chance for you to see me as I am. I think it’s true what they said... you can’t force a person to look beyond their pain.

All I’m saying is, I hope you will see yourself like how I see you, someone who’s strong-willed and determined to do well in his life. I hope you achieve all the success you wish to attain in your life and your career.